“work,” +’s new collection of poetry, is available now

work

work is an epically intimate work, an intimate epic poem. A collection of pieces linked through hushed rapture into one spiraling journey, it is about “maintaining a drug-free, god-fearing place of employment;” the drugs reveal themselves as lust, anxiety, hatred, self-reflexive racism, sexism,  the god is in +’s adulterous co-workers and family, birthday wishes, and forgiving friends. The narrative winds through little moments and out beyond time & space- work is about doing right by one man’s most precious inheritance: his job.

Read work here.

contact: coms@tenderdiscovery.com

new + EP “22 songs: the water temple” available now

22 songs

22 songs: the water temple is the new EP from mercurial utopian rap star +. The continuation of +’s twelfth album, Winter 2012′s serenity: ocarina of time, 22 songs is a portrait of development, peace, exuberance and beauty. It tackles with poetic vibrancy themes of self-love, overcoming dependency, brotherhood, and
embracing queerness of all kinds.

    22 songs: the water temple

  1. esperanza (ready for love) [prod. Owen Hill]
  2. LAND OF SPRINGS [prod. +]
  3. SHOWER SONG (feat. Defcee & Joseph Chilliams) [prod. Steel Tipped Dove]
  4. rara (do you) [prod. Owen Hill & +]


All proceeds from 22 songs will go to The Cooperation Operation’s Pullman community garden project, an endeavor to increase sustainable food/education in the historic southside Chicago neighborhood.

22 songs cover photo by Monica Wizgird

announcements//MAY 2013

On May 24th, + will be releasing a new EP, titled 2songs.

2songs

2songs cover photo by Monica Wizgird

    2songs tracklisting

  1. esperanza (ready for love)
  2. LAND OF SPRINGS
  3. SHOWER SONG (feat. Defcee & Joseph Chilliams)
  4. rara (do you)

All proceeds from 2songs will go to The Cooperation Operation’s Pullman Community Garden project, an endeavor to bring sustainable food/education to the historic Southside Chicago neighborhood. LAND OF SPRINGS will be the first single, released later this month.

On May 24th, + will also be releasing its follow-up to the poetry collection wife, a lyrical essay entitled work.

Adam Yauch, August 5, 1964-May 4, 2012

Adam Yauch, August 5, 1964-May 4, 2012

They will be +‘s eighth EP and fourth collection of poetry respectively.

A new homies blog post, THREE POEMS with h. melt, was posted on May 2nd. A videos section has been added to tenderdiscovery, chronicling the past three years of +.

Here are two + rarities


“Moth’s Wings” with Dave Green, as do what now


“Buttsex: The Classic,” prod. Danny Cohen, as JEWFAM

the homies blog//THREE POEMS: h. melt

photo by Kiam Marcielo Junio

What is normal is what urgently needs serious and radical inquiry and profound re-consideration. H. Melt’s SIRvival in the Second City: Transqueer Chicago Poems is a guide and lightning rod; a contestation of every border imaginable and a celebration of the necessary and ingenious spaces created by the public presence(s) of courageous Trans & Queer people(s) engaged in the construction of new culture(s) and identities for us all. – Kevin Coval

 


When I read a poem from H. Melt, I often feel terror. Sometimes it’s looking into a mirror to a runny nose and eyes wet and red from throwing up; it’s a body trying to take care of itself. It’s -survival- and beautiful at its core in what it wants for all of us. These are the effects of fighting an ill state of being- to be riding with, and reading H. Melt is a treasure.These poems do not appear in SIRvival: they are fresh produce.

photo by Amos Mac


MAKING OUT WITH WES PERRY & FRIENDS
Upstairs gallery, 3rd Wednesdays of the month

Wednesday nights
up a steep second floor
stairwell in Andersonville

Wes Perry
is making out
with friends

making music
with a two piece
band in the corner

making laughs
with Super Human
all female improv troupe

making comedy queer
stopping straight mouths
from snickering at us

making intermission
long hallway line
for the bathroom

making me squeeze
next to strangers
stay the second act

making me dance
between bubbles
Kiam & Janie

making me trip
over Mister Junior’s
red heels & chest hair

making everyone
share their stories
a suggested donation

we all can afford.

***

ARE YOU A LESBIAN?

in high school
in the H hallway

my home base teacher
struggled to make us shut up
during the pledge

no one ever stood
or faced the flag

Precious sat behind me
on the black side
of the class room

straight white boys
nerds and jocks
sat on the Other

one morning
Precious turned around
her pierced tongue hissed

Are you a lesssssssbian?

I froze
awkwardly
answered no

wondered if
that was a lie

because no body
taught me trans
in high school.

***

FEAR OF A GAY PLANET

Queer people exist in multiple worlds. We come out at night. Like the moon. We are most visible at night. Most vulnerable at night. Most active at night. We walk fast past straight bars. We stay awake searching for each other until the sun comes. Then we disappear into our corners. The streets where we don’t blend. Can’t blend. Need to blend. Need to bend back. Keep the blinds open and the lights dim. Who’s watching. My back bend.

They didn’t teach back bending in school. They taught math and science and grammar but I don’t remember any of it. I wanted to learn what they weren’t teaching. So I taught myself. Found people to teach me what I didn’t realize I needed to know. I want to ban straight only education. I was raised straight and cis and still came out queer and trans. I was taught by mostly straight white women but never wanted to be them. I love them still. Sleep next to them still. Am treated like them still.

I can’t go anywhere without seeing straight people. They are everywhere. So are we but they never see us. We come together in small groups. Congregate around small stages. If there is a stage. I will always share the stage. Break the stage. Step off the stage and watch from the side.

I am sick of being watched. Questioned by my own people. I don’t feel safe or understood on planet gay or trans or queer. They all have their own set of rules. We have created our own universes out of necessity. Our own bookstores, magazines, films, gayborhoods, health clinics. This is only a temporary solution. What does building our own separate institutions teach other people, outsiders about us? It is not effective to create more outsiders.

I fear a gay planet. I fear that creating our own worlds, thriving and hiding within them avoids the reasons why we need those spaces in the first place. It does not transform those people and spaces where we feel unsafe when we avoid them altogether. We need to be there. We need to be places where we are uncomfortable and leave when it’s too much to handle.

I do not want to live in a queer utopia. It’s not easy living in a mostly straight world. Being present in one allows us to witness the problems within, to confront them and figure out a way, ways to do better. For other people to do better. We can’t fix every ignorant schmuck but we can’t ignore them either. Most people don’t even realize their wrongdoings, our pains and joys.

We can’t abandon the world we live in. we can’t keep dying in it either. We need to live in it as ourselves. There are times when we need to escape but we must always return. We must always return.   

// You can purchase H. Melt’s SIRvival in the Second City here. They will be appearing at The Encylopedia Show: Origin of Life tonight. Find more
H. Melt everything at hmelt.tumblr.com.

the homies blog//FEATURE: the solitary romance of ibid.

AN INTERVIEW

“[ibid.’s] work bears the mark of a budding audiophile. . . As if getting a brief, fogged glimpse into the world of someone with very different eyes than you.”


ibid. is the creative moniker of Gabriel Mathews, an experimental musician based in Portland, OR and Los Angeles. I wrote the opening quote during 2011, discussing ibid.’s piano-based ambience-filled EP India Ink. There were creaks and raindrops,
 long heavy notes, and dark, tender songs. ibid. has shape-shifted across his
art since, remaining ever distinct and powerful into his most recent album
Gaols (2012). Gaols is composed of distorted bass, the haunt of Mathews voice, found sound percussion, and is one of my favorite, most affecting albums of the past year.

 



THE INTERVIEW

thb: Your releases take markedly different approaches between them. From India Ink to 2011′s This Could Have Been A Warmth to Gaols I’d say the only link I find is your voice (both your physical voice and I suppose a consistent tone); are you actively endeavoring to engage different influences when you change like that? What would you say guides such change?

ibid.: Hm, yeah. That’s definitely going on, the shifting, though I wouldn’t necessarily say it has anything to do with influences.  It’s more about my process, which for whatever reason tends to start with lyrics, followed almost immediately by overall sonic conceptualization. So, with Warmth, I was like, “This will be an acoustic guitar album with live drums. The voice will be panned to one side while the guitar is to the other. There will be organ on the first half and feedback on the second, etc.” And then the arrangement of Gaols came about similarly, though I’d say it was probably even more thoroughly set before I started writing or recording the music.

thb: Why so with Gaols?

ibid.: No idea. I kind of just one day, and I don’t even remember when this happened relative to the writing of the lyrics, but I was like, “This next thing is going to be distorted bass chords. And it’s going to have percussion made from foley samples.” I think the only sonic element that I thought of relatively late in the game was Ava [Mattaliano, backing vocalist on Gaols]‘s singing.

thb: Did you feel like something was missing before you decided to add her? I think it’s very very powerful.

ibid.: Um, so she’s been a friend of mine for a long time, since freshman year of high school.  And I’ve always known she had an amazing voice.  And I don’t really know when I made up my mind to try to pin her down to sing (Which was ridiculously difficult, by the way). And I don’t know if I necessarily felt anything was missing. But, I think it ended up being a pretty important thing for the album. I feel like on an album pretty much about loneliness it was important that I not be totally alone.

That might be a totally retrospective thought, though.

thb: Where does “Gaols” come from? Why that spelling? Aesthetics?

ibid.: Yeah, I think it’s mainly aesthetic. Before I had even written most of the lyrics, I think, I was writing the word out as it appears on the cover, in notebooks in class and such.
But I also just like something about the old-fashionedness of it. I think a lot of the sentiment on the record is sort of old-hat. (Unfortunately.)

thb
: “Old-hat” is a good, encompassing way to put it, from the images of “Bather” to the use of the Laocoön figure, and that’s interesting especially in the context of an aesthetic concept that is so modern. Yet, I guess feels ancient and appropriate in its simplicity. the technical/technological aspect of it enhances the solitary, simple mood or, focus, if you will.

 ibid.: Sure, I think. I don’t know how conscious any of that was, though. But I’ll take credit for it, ha. Laocoön came about mainly cause I think that sculpture is fucking incredible. And then his story is great, too. And then “Atreus” was like, “Oh, let’s continue this Greek mythology thing.” The House of Atreus is also really awesome to me.

thb: Talk about the House of Atreus; how it appeals to you?

ibid.: I guess I just think it’s really cool, in a way, this completely cursed family. The things that led to their cursing (Eating their own children and such). I think it’s the sort of fucked-up we don’t get much of anymore, no matter how much other fucked-up shit we get.

thb
: Have you played live as ibid?

ibid.: Yeah, a few times, though none of the Gaols material yet.

thb: If you were to play from Gaols would it be just you and a bass?

ibid: And a laptop for the beats, yeah. I have a sort of dream of getting Zack Levinger, who drummed on Warmth and with whom I played a house show doing some of those songs over a year ago, getting him to reinterpret the Gaols beats for a drum kit. But I have no idea if that’ll ever happen.

thb: Did he have any creative input on the drumming for Warmth? Would you ever loosen up the creative reins with someone else in general with this project? Ava is credited for coming up with some of her own parts.

ibid.: Yeah, the drum parts on Warmth were hashed out over Skype, but I guess I’d say he really wrote them. I’d give him some direction, he’d play something, I’d tweak it, etc.
The parts Ava came up with were largely a product of her knowing much more than I do about singing and melody and such, same with Zack on the drums.
 As for general loosening of the reins, I think ibid. is probably the name I’ll give to anything where I’m the principal creative, but I wouldn’t mind at all if it ended up having more members, and I’d also be down to work in a more collaborative band of some sort.
The main issue there is just that I kind of know nothing about music, I can’t jam cause I can’t be like, “Okay, yeah, I’ll just play a progression in B now.” I can jam with drummers, that’s about it.

thb: Do you have intentions of learning more about theory or anything like that?

ibid.
: Ha, man, I tried. I took intro to music theory my freshman year and it was gone from my head the moment the class ended. I can’t seem to internalize any of it. But I wouldn’t complain if I could, haha.

It’s funny, there were moments on Gaols where I’d be trying to take this bass part I wrote (This definitely happened with “Brother”) and put a beat under it and I was completely stumped because I’d managed to create some bass riff in some ridiculous time signature that I couldn’t figure out. So I had to have my more musically inclined friends tell me what count I was playing in.


thb
: Haha, ah. Do you have a favorite off Gaols?

ibid.: Um, I have a few that I don’t like as much, but most of them I still think are pretty good, which I can’t necessarily say about Warmth. Up there would be “Brother,” “Atreus,” “Gelding.” I’m also fond of “Colors.”

thb
: So do you feel differently as time passes about a release’s success?

ibid.: On a level or two. At the same time, I really believe in putting things out when they seem to be basically finished. There were things that I definitely didn’t perfect, on all of my releases, but I wouldn’t really have wanted to, if that makes sense. They now capture whatever was going on at the time they were made.

thb
: Are you conceptualizing for a future ibid. release now?

ibid.: As a matter of fact, I am! I’m working on a six-song EP called Good Works, which will be arranged for mostly baritone guitar (Pretty much the best/most underrated instrument available to rock and roll), and which will be punky and fast and loud. I’ve been listening to a lot of Drive Like Jehu.

And then there’s lyrical material for another EP, which will be called Ortho, and which will probably be sort of similar.

thb
: How do you feel like you’ve grown into these releases from your past work?

ibid.
:  Honestly I’m kind of hoping they end up being a little bit less mature mature-sounding. But I think my vocal abilities and style have changed and improved and gotten me to a point where I feel comfortable doing a bit more shouting, which is the plan. And I’ve also just become a vastly better guitar player since Missive.
.
thb: There’s a hook on Warmth where I heard you shouting and it felt like your potential as a punky singer was really intriguing.

ibid.
: Is that on “Speakeasy”?

thb
: Yeaah.

ibid.
: Ha, yeahhhh. I actually wanted to do more shouting on Gaols but it never fit.

thb
: Do you have a time frame for either those releases?

ibid.
: Not really. I’m hoping to have real live drums on both of them, so things hinge on that, sort of. Hopefully at least one will be out sometime in the summer.

// Please please please find more ibid. at ibidibidibid.bandcamp.com.

“the homies blog” starts now

the homies blog is +’s unrepentant investigation into brilliance.

Homies and artists at large often do not get the consideration and critical appraisal they deserve. The hours of time and effort spent are so often passed over as others glance past in the midst of their own personal and economic pursuits. the homies blog is +’s effort to recognize quirks and minute details, to give artists an opportunity to open up un-self-consciously about the things they embed in their expression.

ibid., by Fay Walker

It kicks off today with an interview with experimental L.A. crooner ibid.. In the pending pipeline are features on utopian folk-punk crusader Davey Dynamite, grizzled, spacious rap artists Skech185 & Lamon Manuel, and many more kinds of humans.

wife, coming february 13

wife is +‘s chapbook of poetry, available physically and digitally
with a suggested donation of $5.00 USD

Adam Yauch; August 5, 1964 – May 4, 2012

Adam Yauch; August 5, 1964 – May 4, 2012



husband

for if you are so afraid of without
you leave yourself in the car, or
bedroom, or work shift and
watch a fluttering body dance
anxiously with beauty. flinch on
kiss cam, pay interest with a kind
love, wonder of your muscles -
you know love can be a shark
too, black spheres where sleep
should be. this is for grace, and
the ladder you built as a child.
it’s for manhood as a sterling
truth, growth as a leap into an
infinite dunk, if these two hands
are yours, kiss them as the two
lips that brought them to you,
fearlessness (v.)